And all that Jazz

Just a few more hours until we leave for mass. Noche Buena's always my favourite part, tbh. Anticipating the night, while being fed with Chinese ham, cheese, and lechon. It won't be Christmas to our family without it. Haha!

Anyway, here's my Christmas '09 greeting/ shoutout:




Enjoy the festivities. Happy holidays, folks. :)

I may be called the "wallflower" of the group/ class, either way, I love all my Ders to bits. No matter what. <3

My church friends and I had a costume Christmas party.  Now I admit to being a vain person and having an aversion to costumes because they don't always flatter one's aesthetic details.  So I'd been wracking my brains for a costume that would still make me look good.  Originally I was supposed to come as a Greek goddess, except I didn't have a long, white dress, and Kriska had already left her home in Pampanga with her luggage in tow when I texted her about borrowing hers.

So I decided to come as a gypsy.  I wore a long, black bohemian skirt, a fitted black top, tied a big, purple and gold scarf around my hips, put on big earrings, hung as many long and chunky necklaces around my neck as possible, covered my arms in bangles, and messed up my hair.

I loved every minute of it.  From putting on a good amount of eyeliner, smoking up my eyes, to painting my lips blood red.

My house was two minutes away from the venue and my dad was too tired to drive me there, so I rode a jeepney.

"You went out in public looking like that?" my friends exclaimed.  "Didn't people stare at you?"

"Yeah, of course they did.  I didn't really care."

"And I think that was just the point," someone added.

I just smiled.

That night was as close as my boring, good girl, society-pleaser self got to being a mysterious and sensuous woman of the earth, able to take you by the hand, take you to places you've never been to, and set your world on fire.

Catherine

Four more days till Christmas...and the number one question is: have you finished your Christmas shopping? I certainly haven't. WHEEEE. Now I'm forced to battle the Christmas traffic both on the road, and in the malls/ bazaars. HELLO PANIC BUYING! It's madness I tell you! That's what you get for procrastinating. Again. 8D LOL.

It's going to be a very very busy week. I demand to get fat!

• On the late-night news, I watched as Datu Unsay Mayor Andal Ampatuan Jr. was escorted by the NBI with his lawyer amid a riot of protesters.  He got knocked down once and got badly hit on the head by a dslr camera (I think), regardless of how hard the police were trying to protect him.  I commented to my mom, "You know what?  They should just screw the trial and simply have those NBI escorts suddenly desert him in the middle of the furious crowd."
• I've always wondered why men who are unfaithful in their relationships are also the ones who are completely paranoid about their wives/girlfriends.  They're the ones who go into fits of jealousy and extreme suspicion, making stories out of thin air and then beating their wives/girlfriends up on account of their delusions.  Really.  The world doesn't need people who are unfaithful and stupid at the same time.  Sana may ma-contribute naman kayo sa ikabubuti ng mundo, okay?
• Our Anthro 10 professor stressed the fact that other animals have better features than ours.  They have more balance, better eyesight, sharper teeth and claws, more speed, more muscle power, they can fly, some of them are way bigger than us, etc.  But since humans are still the ones who are in charge, I guess it really does boil down to who has the better brain --to who's able to make the assets of others work for him.  Capitalism works that way too.
• I'm not sad, but I'm not happy either.  I feel empty, which I consider the worst feeling of all because catharsis isn't even possible in such a case.
• It suddenly struck me.  People always say that happiness is a choice.  I think I've said it myself without really believing it.  Ma-testing nga.  Sige.  I AM HAPPY!
• Aba, in fairness it's working!
• Why didn't I try this sooner?
• This is so cool!
• Shit, I'm going crazy, haha!
• My friend Dino also taught me something interesting.  It's the concept of Have-Do-Be.  Simple.  Most people think that they have to HAVE certain things to be able to DO stuff to be able to BE a certain person.  For example, he wants to be the lead singer of a popular band so that he can play at gigs, sing his heart out, make big demands, eat at good restaurants, and eventually become a popular, fulfilled, happy, and contented person.  But according to him it doesn't work that way.  The correct pattern to achieving what you want is the reverse: Be-Do-Have.  You be the person you want to be at the end of your goals, then do the things you want to do, and then get what you want to have.  It helps if you actually write everything down, even just the keywords.
• Ma-try nga.  Haha!  Lahat na lang pinag-tripan eh.  But you never know.  I just might stumble upon something amazing.  So fine.  I'll give it a 1-month trial period.  We shall see if all this psychological crap really works.  Yes, that's how bored and overworked I am.
• Oh wait, I'm happy na pala.  Haha.

Catherine

Just in case anyone has been tuning in, I'm really sorry that I've been neglecting this blog lately. I've been busy. Not with froth (see previous entries) but with stuff I've been required (and not necessarily thrilled) to do. So here are some thought bullets to unwind:

* Let me start by saying that I'm not very fond of this sem. I'm constantly loaded with work and papers and I rarely get to see my friends. Now I am a creature of balance. All work and no social life tends to leave me sad and discontented. Hindi ko carry magpaka-loner and workaholic. I consider social interaction an everyday must, especially with the people who matter the most to me. Unfortunately that has hardly been the case lately.

* Jim Lafferty once said that once you become a Christian, you completely give up the right to judge other people. It's part and parcel of the faith. I'm quoting him because I'm rather disappointed in some people who I know for a fact have been saying mean things behind my back for months now, about my spiritual life, nonetheless; people who pride themselves in being "Christians." I just think it's wrong for them to suddenly think themselves better than others just because they think they have been enlightened. And you know what's ironic? My friends and family who know me best, those who have seen the good AND the bad in me have never judged me that way. As for those who are saying such things, let's just say that out of the 168 hours we have in a week, they only see me for 2-4 hours, and during those 2-4 hours we don't even talk to each other. So I'm like dudes, where on earth did you get your information? About my spiritual life, nonetheless. Close tayo?

* 2009 was a year of heartbreak, loss, and (painful) cleansing. Hopefully 2010 will be about gain, progression, happiness, and abundance. No more drama, please. 2009 was the most unbelievably dramatic year yet.

* The Christmas goods are starting to pour into the house again. Oh no. Last night the people at Chem Eng'g left me alone in the office with a huge chocolate bar lying open on the table. I can't be blamed for what happened next.

* We were required to watch the Oblation Run last Tuesday in our Soc Sci 3 class. People kept saying, "Ang liit!" And in my head I was like, "Er, I wouldn't know. No point of comparison." :p

* Kriska, Cel, and I got together after the Oblation Run for a late lunch. It turns out Cel watched it too. AS was just too crowded for us to bump into each other. "How about you?" we asked Kriska. "Where were you?" "I was at the 12nn mass," she answered. We burst out laughing. Just picture the two scenes in your head happening at the same time. Imagine Kriska; then me and Cel. Put those two pictures together. Lovely, haha!

* Sir Chino Toledo is one of the funniest people I know. He mentioned that it was my birthday recently and asked how old I was. Well I've always had the habit of joking that I was 16. So for a change I told him I was 17 already. "Hindi nga?" he said. "Oo nga," I answered. "Yung totoo," he insisted. "Totoo nga, Sir," I stood my ground. "5th year ka na tapos 17 ka pa lang? Anong age ka nakapasok sa college niyan?" he challenged. "I got into college very early, Sir. I'm a genius." He answered, "Genius? Hindi ako naniniwala. Naging estudyante na kita dati eh!"

* ANG SAMA NIYO, SIR! HAHAHAHA!

Anyway that will be all for now. I still have a lunch with my girls. Forgive the low conceptualization of this blog entry. The following blog entries might be similar. I'm just far too busy to come up with well-thought-up entries for this public diary of mine. I'm either writing articles or drumming up college papers so I need to cut myself some writing slack. But thanks for reading anyway. And Happy Holidays =)

Catherine